Exit Key [Poetry]

[sorry for the bad language]

so now you've given me definition
i have this horrible love sick condition
i've fallen in love with you so fast
that you're just so damn sure that it won't last
i'm sworn into the office of your eternal worship
by making shows of love that just aren't worth it
you're shoved up the ass of that stupid bastard
who only says he loves you when he's totally plastered
you've decided that i will never walk away
that my undying affection is some sick buffet
and maybe i don't have that kind of power
and maybe i feel like without you i'll flounder
and maybe fucking you makes me feel alive
and your touch sets me on fire inside
but don't stand there and pretend like i'm tamed
like i was a lost possession and now i've been claimed
i have a life beyond your embrace
i dream of more than just the contours of your face
i have dreams and shit and i want more
i don't lie in wait for you to knock on my door
what pisses me off the very most
is that you allow your boyfriend to boast
like he alone gets to see you naked
like when you have sex you don't fake it
like you haven't told me that i'm the one you desire
like you told him he's the one you require
i'm not proud of what i feel
that you've trampled me and i want you still
i'm not okay with my unconditional affection
because it just feels like a useless obsession
so i think that it is time for this to end
so that i can actually have space to mend
so fuck you and you're indecisiveness
you've made a warrior out of a pacifist
i get so angry when i make you cry
because i know it's just another lie
you're crying because you are weak
you say you care much more than i think
but i am aware that is nothing but bullshit
you're just upset that i don't find you worth it
but how can i compete with heterosexuality?
people like me strive to survive, actually
and when a girl is with a girl who's with a guy
and she says she'll leave him- it's always a lie
you never had any intention for cessation
you provided his loves continual incubation
i'm sure that you'll figure out that you're my soul mate
but the realization of it will simply be too late
so i'm meant to grow old by your side
that's just too damn bad. it's over. goodbye.